Have you ever been on the brink of something so major that you couldn’t move?
I am. And I’m not quite sure what it is but I know its like Sam Cooke type change. I know because lately I’ve felt things coming into alignment and I’ve started seeing movement in small things. It’s like the scene in every action movie when the ground starts to tremble and the little pieces shake first. And like the close up shot, I am watching the minor things shake and know there’s a major move coming.
There’s usually two reactions when the little things start to shake: wonder or run. And in the movies and in real life, most people do the former. Because standing with your head facing upward at the time will seem like a good idea. After all, there’s a natural human urge to wonder where the tremors are coming from. What is causing all that commotion? How close is it? Is it here?
That used to be me. When I felt movement in my life, when things began to shift, I’d flip my head up and with my chin in the air, I’d ask, “What the hell is going on?” If I was in a motion picture film, I’d be those few seconds of suspense. I’d be the viewers’ way in- the person who allows you to fully experience it all: the caught breath and the moment right before. That used to be me.
After going through that sequence a few times now, I’ve learned to pick up on the clues. I’ve learned that when I hear the building background score that something is on the way. I’ve learned that in the time it takes to be worried or unsure, the thing on its way doesn’t stop coming. And so after stressing, literally pulling out my hair and wondering what was on its way, I am choosing the better option: to move.
While it’s easy to get caught up in what change is on its way, the smarter option is to move towards it. Though we often are silent on what we go through alone, I am willing to admit how scared I have been in the moments before. I have sat still with a sloppy bun and a trembling heart praying that I could know the next scene. And while life isn’t always perfect, there’s nothing like when the next scene is a blessing. After going through the cycle a few times around, I’ve finally come to the realization that I am not in the audience of this thing and watching won’t get me closer to where I am supposed to be.
When we truly come into our purpose, that’s when we realize that we are the next scene. That’s when we stop waiting for it to reveal itself and we realize we have to discover it alone. Watching the film won’t change the script. The scene after will only come when we know when to leave the one before.
Today, be aware of the scene before, notice the trembling pieces and instead of asking about the change- move.