Lee Boyd Malvo claims he was abused by John Allen Muhammad

In an exclusive interview with NBC’s Matt Lauer, Lee Boyd Malvo alleges he was sexually abused by shooting mastermind, John Allen Muhammad.

Malvo, who was just 17 when the attacks terrorized the D.C.-area in 2002, now claims that Muhammad abused him from the time he was 15 until the pair were arrested.

He told Lauer,

“For the entire period when I was almost 15 until I got arrested, I was sexually abused by John Muhammad.”

“I felt a sense of shame, and I just said, ‘That’s just something that I’d never tell anyone.’ And to a certain extent, up until that point, I really couldn’t handle it.”

Despite being 15 at the time the abuse allegedly took place, Malvo insists he couldn’t say no. Why? He craved love and Muhammad took advantage of the troubled teen.

“I couldn’t say no. I had wanted that level of love and acceptance and consistency for all of my life, and couldn’t find it.  And even if unconsciously, or even in moments of short reflection, I knew that it was wrong, I did not have the willpower to say no.”

Although Muhammad was executed in 2009, Malvo says he’s coming forward now because he’s older, wiser, and more equipped to handle the mental trauma he’s dealt with over the last decade.

“The main reason I’m coming forward now is because I am more mature. As far as the guilt that I carried around for several years, I dealt with that to a large extent for years. And now, I can handle this. In here, there’s no therapy. Rehabilitation is just a word. In solitary confinement, in a cell by yourself, I am priest, doctor, therapist. So, it just worked out that I just took it off piece by piece. That I could handle it.”

 

During the revealing interview, Malvo also told Matt Lauer that there are more victims of the shooting spree that have yet to be identified, but he’s taken it upon himself to reach out to the victims’ families.

“Without anyone contacting me two and a half years ago, I reached out and I did that. In five different instances in different states. But there was a point in time where psychologically, I couldn’t handle it…I cannot afford to break down psychologically in here, because there will be no help,” he explained.

Malvo, now 27, is serving a life sentence in a Virginia prison. He told Lauer that he isn’t speaking out now to curry sympathy from the public.

“I seriously doubt this is going to change anything as far as my life goes,’’ he said. “I’ve come to grasp that what I have to look forward to is life in prison.

“I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. It was intended to punish, and it is effective. It is complete deprivation. I don’t see outside. I have no contact with animals, plants, people.”

While many of his victims and their families may not have forgiven Malvo for his heinous actions, he says he’s forgiven himself. Why? “That’s the only way I can live with myself,’’ he admitted.

  • http://AirInDanYell.tumblr.com Erin

    I’m not shocked about him alleging that he was sexually abused by Muhammad. He was also mentally and emotionally abused. He was a child, manipulated by a grown man… an easy target. I don’t feel sorry for him, but I do appreciate the fact that he’s taken accountability for his actions. And if families of the victims can forgive him for what he did to their loved ones that’s solace enough. Hopefully for the rest of his life, which he will spend alone, he will continue to reflect on what he could have done differently, but, I do believe that there comes a point where a person has to accept what they have done and the mistakes that they made in youth or in life, stop beating themselves up about it, and try to psychologically better themselves mentally. I think after a decade in solitary confinement, he has reached that point.

  • Treece

    Sad…..just sad all around. I live in the DC metro area and I remember the fear people had just going on errands and getting gas. I was away at school at the time (about two hours away from the area) but I was so afraid for my family. Also a sidenote: some people believe that the sniper attacked only in dc b/c of the name the media gives them, but only one victim was shot in dc. Most were in MD and VA (some right outside of the DC boundary, some farther away).

  • Cocochanel31

    Not surprising at all if Muhhammad did abuse him..sounds typical of a sociopath. For someone who is working on “healing” themselves..he seems to have done a decent job of it…If he is in prison for life, I don’t think he should never be allowed to interact with the prison population at all, what purpose does it serve ( unless for his own protection) since he’s never getting out anyway?? It’s a wonder he is not plumb crazy after being in solitary alll these years….

  • victoria

    Im not surprised.

    Boys and girls so in need of love, abusers recognize this and take advantage of it. I have heard of situations when people ”accepted” the abuse because it was the only form of ‘love’ they knew. It’s sad that so many kids are subjected to this, left vulnerable w/o protection b/c their home life is bleak. Abusers know who to target.

  • Starla

    So sad to see such a brilliant young man who could have been something great in life reduced to this. Such a sad life.

  • Anthony

    I think he should be eligible for parole at some point because he was clearly being controlled by an adult who was a father figure. He can’t just waltz out in ten years or so because he did commit murder, but it seems to me that he has a core that is worth saving.

  • OSHH

    So sad, if and when people decide to have children, it is so vital to love, guide, nurture, and protect your children, YOU CANNOT TRUST HARDLY ANYONE WITH YOUR KIDS even as teens, you simply cannot this includes clergy ,mentors, scout leaders, coaches, your own fam, other kids etc. Give them the love and proper parenting at home, equip them, then they will not be out here in the world looking for it, a place they often find any and everything but.

  • The Patient One

    Yes. I live in MD and it has been my pet peeve that these guys were labeled as the ‘DC sniper’ even though most of their attacks were in MD.

  • African Mami

    Beautiful words.Printing them out for my little one.

  • http://gravatar.com/clnmike Tonton Michel

    Perfect example of what happens when the wrong person becomes involved in a kids life. His life didnt even get to truly start before it was ruined. I hope the families of the victims can find room in their hearts to forgive.

  • http://theblackgirloncampus.blogspot.com Peace

    Seriously, I’m not shocked by this. I remember how it was like living in the DMV area in 2002 and when they discovered who the snipers were. Muhammad was a monster, but Malvo was just a tormented and impressionable kid. I do wish the best for him in prison.

  • Rue

    “He craved love and Muhammad took advantage of the troubled teen.
    I couldn’t say no. I had wanted that level of love and acceptance and consistency for all of my life, and couldn’t find it.”

    As one as was not raised by her mother (don’t get me wrong, she was NOTHING like his), and as someone who grew up in a place where the common practice was for people to leave their children sometimes with untrustworthy folks for “foreign, jis remarks about love hit close to home. I weep every time i see him.

  • http://gravatar.com/heavenleiblu heavenleiblu

    Unfortunately, I’m not surprised at all by this. I suspected it since I saw them on American Gangster. such a bad sistuation all around.

  • http://clutch carmen

    It is children without an adequate support system; a loving nurturing home, no matter who is there.

  • Gisèle

    Poor boy, i do pefer a death life !! This boy wil pass the most part of his life in prison, whit nobody to talk, alone …

  • GeekMommaRants

    This young man is Jamaican, not born or raised here. His mom allowed John Muhammad to bring her son to the states. The family is/was very dysfunctional.

  • isolde3

    @SMH

    Um, no. Actually, you blamed the rape/murder victim and her grandmother.

    http://www.clutchmagonline.com/2012/09/shania-gray-16-murdered-before-she-could-testify-against-her-alleged-rapist/comment-page-2/#comments

    Way to backtrack there, Skippy.

  • opinionatedgal

    Not surprising to hear about the sexual abuse; everything about that relationship was unnatural and sad.

  • isolde3

    “Go play somewhere, I’m busy.”

    @SMH

    Who are you kidding? You’re busy, alright. You’re busy spending copious amounts of time trolling a woman’s blog-site (big man that you are). With all the nonsense you post, it’s no wonder you can’t keep your BS straight.

    Anyway, the true, despicable tea about what you wrote in the Shania Gray rape/murder thread is there for all to see in that link I posted where you blamed Shania and her grandmother for Shania’s rape and murder. So you can either continue making a good meal out of your foot or use your mouth and missing ribs to resort to your self-gratifying tendencies under your bridge.

  • set

    This is so sad and unfortunate,

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