True Life: I’ve Been Avoiding the News

by Britni Danielle

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After the jury found George Zimmerman not guilty of murdering Trayvon Martin I felt ill.

Apparently, I looked ill too because my grandmother asked me if I was feeling all right. I wasn’t. As I flipped on her TV to try to make sense of the verdict, I realized I couldn’t stomach hearing about the case anymore.

After being a passionate follower (and participant) of the protests, the lead up to trial, and making sure I was up to date on what happened in the courtroom (complete with watching the live stream), I could no longer bring myself to listen to pundits drone on about why Zimmerman got off and what it means for America.

I know what it means. It means the status quo racked up another victory, while those of us who hopped things might turn out different this time (despite all evidence to the contrary), were crushed once again.

So I’ve been staying away from the news and floating along in my little self-made bubble of peace and blissful ignorance because this is the only thing that feels comfortable right now.

Disconnecting myself from the media is sort of tricky when it’s a part of my job, but my mental and emotional health is far more important than seeing what story I can write about to drum up some almighty page views.

So while most of my friends continue to hash out the particulars of the trial, watch CNN and Headline News for juror explanations about what went down, I’m staying away.

Because if I allow myself to get dragged to the 24/7 analysis and conversations I will begin to feel sad and pissed off and hopeless all over again. And that’s just not good for anyone.

Have you been shying away from the news, or are you still tuning in? Share your thoughts. 

  • http://gravatar.com/wisecurls Angela

    I’ve been staying away as well. I tossed and turned all Sunday night and couldn’t get Trayvon’s name and face out of my head. I prayed and I cried and held my 4 month son so tight as I tossed. For my own sanity, I had to do like you and put myself in my own bubble.

  • http://gravatar.com/solfresh solfresh

    I’ve begun my news purge today. I think I’ve heard enough analysis and what not. I’m over Zimmerman’s brother. To be honest the follow up interviews with Rachel Jeantel and Juror B37 just made me feel worse. This case was flawed on so many levels from the defense, to the prosecutor, the handling of the evidence, the “star” witness and right on down to the jury.

    I’ll be keeping an ear out to see if the case will be taken to federal court but other than that I’m over it.

  • ScriptTease

    I didn’t even follow the trial, and was hoping I would be at home when the verdict went down. I work with a lot of Southern White folks, (need I say more), and the last thing I need was being stared at waiting on my reaction to the verdict. Once again, I lucked out. I was at work when the Martin Lee Anderson verdict went down too. Just disgusted, but hopefully this verdict will be a wake-up call for black folks from coast to coast. “We NEED to get our shit together. If we don’t care, why the hell should anyone else care. We’re at a cross road, and what are we going to do?
    …and another thing. I am so sick and tired of these Uncle Toms and Tomettes coming up with reasons why Trayvon caused his own death, and the violence in Chicago, and this and that. These people are the worst kind of Black People.

  • kbrann

    Your words perfectly describe what I’ve been doing. Thank you for sharing. I’m staying away from all news and newspapers until I can handle it.

  • mEE

    I feel the same way. it’s just way too overwhelming right now. on the flip side my little brother who barely keeps up with the news has become so involved now since the trial and especially since the verdict. he called me last night so we could watch the Rachel Jeantel and juror interview together and I just couldn’t do it.

  • MimiLuvs

    I avoid the hot bed of where the faceless-anonymous racists hang out (Yahoo articles, Huffington Post, etc.)

  • victoria

    I’ve only read the headlines. My heart cant take reading articles nor comments. And surprisingly, my news-addict mother has done the same; although, she has followed this case from the beginning. Im not ready.

  • Kacey

    I hear you, Britni. I was on a self-imposed news fast myself, until this verdict. Now, every time I hear something new about this case it feel like my blood pressure goes up, so I know that I need to go back on my media diet. I should to be studying right now but I’m bothered to distraction over this case.

  • victoria

    I figured that out about the huffington post years ago. I crossed them off of my list about 4-5 years ago and my news and blog readings have been quite ”peaceful” since then.

  • London

    I cried so hard the day of the verdict. I locked myself in the bathroom, and just let it all out. I knew Zimmerman was going to get off. I prepared myself for it. But I kept on thinking about Trayvon Martin’s parents, and how they must of felt hearing that verdict. It just broke my heart thinking about them.

    Since then all the news stations have been getting on my nerves. The only one I can stomach somewhat is MSNBC. But CNN lost me as viewer when it seemed like right after the verdict was read, the anchors was eagerly awaiting race riots to break out in black communities. Then they “were shocked” and (and i am sure a little disappointed) no violence broke out.

    And I heard they had Rachel Jeantel was CNN last night. I feel like they are just exploiting this poor girl now for ratings.

    I can’t bring myself to look at the front pages of the New York Post or The Daily News. I don’t want to know the racist shit they have to say about Trayvon or the case.

    Fox News is Fox News. They are probably have victory parties in their back offices.

  • Miakoda

    I’m too curious to avoid the news. I am just trying super hard not to read the comments.

  • Erinn

    I’ve been doing the complete opposite…trying to make sense of what just happened. It’s bothered me for days and in some way I feel like watching the news will keep me intuned with what the jurors were actually thinking when they said “NOT GUILTY”

  • Erinn

    I cried too

  • Mademoiselle

    I’m exactly like the author. I’ve felt sick since Sunday morning and avoid the news. Although I do plan to write lots of letters to politicians this weekend, I just won’t turn on my tv.

  • http://gravatar.com/geenababe geenababe

    @London
    I agree with you about CNN actually the way all the media kept saying the word peacefully when it came to protests got on my nerves. Like they were waiting for violence. I just don’t trust CNN anymore.

  • beautifulcomplx

    I truly thought I was the only one who felt this way. I spent the entire trial watching HLN, every TV in my house was stuck on this channel, I even watched at work via live stream. But once the verdict was released I was done and exhausted with mixed emotions.

    I love this article, thanks so much….back to my bubble.

  • omfg

    as someone who was a reporter of news, i can tell you you’re better off not watching it.

    i don’t watch any news, unless there’s something major – like the elections or a disaster like katrina. otherwise, just read something online.

    people are being manipulated without even realizing it. sometimes when i hear people talk about issues, i just think about the extent to which their opinion definitely comes from a television/radio news source. it’s so obvious sometimes.

  • Brownie13

    Yea, I knew I wasn’t the only one. And I`M walk out anytime someone brings it up at work.

  • Brownie13

    I ^^^ typo

  • Tonia

    I watched the news until 2 o’clock in the morning on Saturday. It took me two more hours before I could fall asleep.To have my 13 year old son ask me why Zimmerman was not found guilty was a hard pill to swallow. I have not been able to watch the news because my feelings are still too raw at this point. I can see that was a wise decision between Zimmerman’s brother and juror B 37 on air foolishness.

  • SE

    I’ve definitely stopped watching the news since the verdict because I can’t take anymore of the bs. I watched the trial on CNN and after the verdict I just tuned out. I’m very disappointed and upset.

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